Oh gosh I am SO going crazy without being able to drive. Seriously. I feel absolutely CAGED at this moment. There’s a car, just 10 feet from me sitting in the garage. Wanna see it?

I’m going to be very specific here for a moment. This is not a bragging post okay? I’ve heard so many things about this car but they are not reasons I purchased it. I’ll go into it in a minute here. First and foremost I don’t CARE what kind of car it is… but let me just say, I’m in a bit of a *huff* right now ’cause I have a vehicle and I cannot drive it! ARGH!

On June 14th I got my license suspended on a medical suspension. Oh fer… I understand, I get it… but 6 months? (** Caution RANT starts here **) What is 6 months gonna do?! Will I be CURED in six months? No. Does it make anything safer? No. I get their reasons, and I’m all for protecting folks. But puhlease! (** Massive amounts of whining WARNING **)

The reason I showed ya the car is because it’s not cheap. SO I’m paying a fortune (yes, my decision I know) for the car to sit in the garage.

Oh, I can sit in it.

I can roll it down the drive way and then back into the garage…

I can ask my hubby to drive it so I can sit in the passenger seat.

(** Feeling Guilty Here Complaining right about – NOW **)

Okay, I guess my rant is over. But call me a whiner, or whatever first comes to mind… the fact is, I live in the middle of nowhere with no public transportation and I have to ask my husband for rides ANYWHERE. Yes, I’m feeling caged in. *humph*

Please forgive the rant… but I’m gonna pull my hair out.

I’m gonna put a counter on the side of my blog. It will look hideous, but it will count down the number of days until I can drive. Maybe it will make things better….

Mon
(a little down)

Hi there!

My dearest husband took off for a day to Utah for a reunion of our training group. It’s funny, ’cause I’m so happy for him to get out and get away for a bit of time to himself. He’s had such a rough time as of late… what with things here at the house, his father being at the end of cancer, and a load of work. I’m glad he’s taking this time to go have some genuine fun.

He and I have been married since May of 2006 and integrating a family has been very interesting and at times a huge test of our spirits. We’ve done great in my opinion, but there are always times when each of us, married or not, need time to ourselves. Because even when you are married, I truly believe you are still individuals as well.

I remember when marriage was simply something I didn’t have a need for. I was a single mother for upwards of 10 years and did very well on my own. I was quite independent and simply “knew” I could take it all on. I did take it all on, and succeeded.

Then the issue of marriage came up and he and I simply “dived” in. We ran away and got married and happilly. Both of us had stated we would never get married again, and that we didn’t “need” to be married. Funny, as much as we said it was as hard as we ran to do it.

Life being a combined family has its ups and downs to be sure. But I have to say, sharing this life with him is simply wonderful. No doubts there.

The children are doing well. Stephen has been happy and healthy, James has been happy too – After all mom has been home 24/7 and given them both ample family time.

I work from the time I get up to the time I go to sleep now. Owning your own business requires that you take care of your clients – and I have to say it’s very enjoyable. Having the ability to work from my home and be with the kids has been very refreshing. Although, we pay for an office in a city away… I have been working from the house to be sure I’m home right now for Stephen.

I’m getting a bit antsy. I haven’t driven since June 14th of this year and my brand new (under 4k miles) Lexus is dusty in the garage. Not being able to drive has taken a bit of a toll on my good natured self. I sometimes feel very “caged” and totally dependent on my husband to get me from point A to point B. I’m sure my license will be good in at the most January of 2008. Although the 6 months hits on 12/14/2007 – it does take the California Dept. of Motor Vehicles quite a while to process paperwork. So I’m giving it until January so I won’t be let down.

After all of this happened with Stephen I noticed how much love and caring those around me had to share. Family came out of the wordwork to be sure all was well. Friends were right there for me when I needed them. Including my “Blogging” friends. Thank you for the uplifting comments and emails. You are appreciated.

Well, enough rambling and back to work.

My love to you and yours…

Sincerely,

Monica (albiet caged, but still smiling)